20 Years.240 months->Survived.
Expectations all the way.Performance pressure all the way.
Nothing discovered worth enough to die for->No conscious attempt for success.No milestones Targetted.None crossed either.
^Philosophical nonsense.
About me:(Like you care)->
Frank.Straightforward.Least ambitious.(Jeeyenge apni sharton par.)Heavily Reluctant when it comes to sacrificing my true self.Take me the way i am and i am good.Nice enough even when i am not your type.Voluntarily isolated myself from the cut-throat race(or has the race...?).I seldom spill the beans.Safe with secrets not to be brought up.(A weak memory actually).Rarely would you notice me participating in gossips.I hate my looks.I suffer from hairloss,very slender built unfortunately,but not that i am going to do
much about it.Artificiality in any aspect is a turn-off.Avril lavigne sung it for me in "Complicated".Just adhering to my true self is such a delight.
I can be a chatter-box.I can be the introvert-yet-irresistable- guy.I can be the diplomat.I can be the flirt.I am THE ACTOR.Prone to Frequent mood swings->conscious ones,most times.I can be uncomprehensible,a tough friend. Spontaneity and sarcasm for Okhade->Sathya and ahimsa for gandhi.Discover the analogy and lemme know.Planned ventures hurt.When they fail,that is.Expecting is the cause of all depression.Let-go attitude rocks.Simplicity amuses me.Pomp and show are one of those things i try to avoid.
Regrets section-> Procrastrination has been the story of my life.I often project myself as the intapped talent,or the unsung hero,for that matter.The truth being,that i never really exerted myself to nurture the inherited talents i have been blessed withI realize that.I regret.Thanks to the unexposed artist within,eventually, i started to drift away from my studies for hobbies,even which, paradoxically, i am not involved into.I am in the hectic engineering schedule->The latest excuse that i have invented for skipping activities i love.Just for the sake of future stabilty(?),i would not be choosing stage.I would be coding,designing user-friendly applications for people,for people i would have otherwise liked to reach through theatre.Just for the sake of food water,I dare sacrifice you-Mr. creative satisfaction.I have expectations to fulfill,not mine of course.Maybe someday,i break out of this cocoon.Maybe i go as far as being selfish,to do what i would love to professionally.
Ok i am done with killing time today.Glad you stuck here till the end.
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first of all you say that you are least ambitious. on the other hand you are sad because you didnt get any appraisal. is it not contradictory? i think there is a discrepency in your own logic.
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